The Question You Ought To Ask

This is getting consistent... blogging entries 2 days in a row... Hmm...

Have been trying to do some self discovery of late and toggled with a few thoughts that led me to thinking how un-ambitious I've always been.

Strike that off.

In fact, I haven't always known what was it that I liked doing, unless you're talking bout just shopping for fun without worrying bout credit. Now, that, is stating the apparent obvious.

But other than that, I don't quite know where my passion lies.

Disaster eh?

Know why this has come up? Coz I've been questioning my own existence in things I do/have.

At work. If I've been of any value in the years building up to today. Rather, was I just easily contented knowing things will sort themselves out. People, generally, see this as a lazy thought.

And embarrassingly, I'm starting to see that point. I must've been stuck in comfort zone for a while now.

At home. Other than the occasional readings and surfings and games, what else do I really do. As in REALLY do. None of those contributes to any of my knowledge gaining, or self building, or mind strengthening... you get the idea.

With family. Knowing I have a family who loves me is comforting. But knowing in time to come when support is needed and I can only contribute this much, is not something I take pride in. I wish I could be better, and I wish I was smarter.

With friends. With age, you'd eventually find a group of people you'd call friends for life. Quantity isn't the significance, quality is. I want to be able to have more time to reach out to these people and make it a point to stay in touch.

With the other half. The biggest portion of transformation could possibly be influenced from this segment of my life. Undeniably there should be credits going to him. I ain't necessarily the perfect match, my explosive ego isn't always necessarily easy to deal with. And I have this tinge of sensitivity that isn't necessarily easy to handle. There's this never-ending strike of balance I'll always have to learn, and I am still learning.

My oh my, it's 7.37pm and there's a continuous deafening thunderstorm out there.

Thank god I'm home and ain't on the way back. I'd be soaked & drenched wet, even with a mighty umbrella.

Going to stop right here and catch up some other time.