For The Umpteenth Time...

Sien-nya.

If only I could sit around and live like there's no tomorrow. Then there's so much lesser to worry about...

Just received my credit card statement today. Die. For the umpteenth time for the past two years, I've been repeating this thought to myself. "Spend less, save more this month! Next time I'll leave the cards at home!". Everytime I see the bills, every month, every pay day, every shopping & purchase, every credit due date. And people say when you start earning your own money and paying for your own expenses, you're officially poor. So true. You'd think you can spend on plastic, and pay later, thinking by then your next salary will be out to cover the expenses. Wrong! Any financially-wise person will tell you, that's a stupid move! Yet, I never learn. I need some serious restructuring of thoughts and planning, else I'll get nowhere any sooner.

I also miss the piano back at home. Not like I can just walk down a fleet of stairs from my room to the living hall and play whenever I want to, whenever I feel like it. That's a flexibility I miss. And I find my harmony getting worse after losing the touch to it after years of 'no-piano-playing-at-all-lifestyle'. Try humming a second or third voice to a song now, langsung tak boleh. I hope I don't lose everything I've learned in the younger days, that's gonna be a real waste! Waste of dad's money, of Teacher Wendy's time, of my years of practice! Guitar - that's something I should start to seriously pick up. And I don't just mean by meddling with the few common chords. What I mean is to play a complete real song, the whole song, without stopping. Hmm... Let's do that. Shall I put this as one of my to-do-lists of 2009? We'll see!!