Counting Down!

Oh, I realised even up 'til today, I have YET to blog about that trip back in 2010 to London.

And then there was also the trip to Chengdu & ZhangJiaJie.

I think the sensual memories are fading effectively now. Crap.

I now only have visual memories to offer you - Thank God for Facebook!

But I'm now, busily, hastily, excitedly, anxiously looking forward to the trip to Siem Reap.

Busily - because there's been a couple of deadlines & projects coming around. I don't know yet if I'm gonna leave for a holiday with a troubled, stressful heart.

Hastily - because for some reasons, I didn't think I had enough preparation whatsoever to conquer temples & endless fleet of stairs. I don't even have a bagpack for that matter. And mind you, four floors of upwards stair-climbing spontaneously made me catch for breath! How to climb, u tell me?

Excitedly - I'm going on a holiday, soon! duhh...

Anxiously - sigh, I'm not exactly anyone's fittest imagination of the word "adventurous", and all my travelling buddies ARE. :(

I'll go with one intention. And that is, to capture images so that I can upload an album onto Facebook and name the title "Siem Reap", which goes to say one destination down & checked in my list of to-go-places-before-I-die!

(Oh, and I think dying could be anytime u know, look at what the world is becoming. Reading Japan's news on the disasters after disasters just becomes really depressing these days. My prayers go out to them. :(( )

Untying That Knot

I'm almost certain there isn't any reference, live guides or manuals that are tailored & catered to a relationship like mine.

I would've bet all the money in the world to assure that no one, at this stage, understands exactly what's it like to be in it, let alone say to us, "I know exactly how it feels"

This is a walk-alone journey. For me, and for him. That's tough. And it gets challenging all the more. From time to time. It also gets rather lonely when the going gets rough. That's how 'customized' this relationship is.

There isn't a word that exists yet (at least of a word I know that exists) that could sum up the equation of me + him.

And for this, it frustrates me mad at some point of time. For being that abnormal. And for some other time, it just, I dunno... beautifies the whole thing. Because for some reasons, we're actually composing an equation that's just, simply us. No standard couple rule. No standard relationship rule. Just us. Our rule.

For some very indescribable reasons today, I feel comforted that one big knot untied itself.

I wouldn't say relief was the right word. But I was reassured, that much I know, that I did make a right decision. And I hope it continues to prove me right.