I don't know anymore if I'm withdrawn from being myself, at times like these :(
Feeling a little tired about the need to respond "logically", that even initial reactions have to be carefully thought out.
It's almost as if it's a crime to be "entitled" to behave with instant reflex of emotional reaction.
Has it really always been me...? Have my emotions always been wrong and too overboard...?
The fact that I actually had to feel guilty bout being so in sync with my own emotions, just because I was afraid people would have to bear or put up with me - is this really a worrying alarm?
Am I shifting away from being the person I really am?
I really want to feel normal again.
I want to be able to freely and naturally and unconsciously be myself again, and be accepted the way I am without being judged, without having to keep a constant rationale-check at the back of my mind all the time.
Do you think I'll be able to achieve that?
