Finally understood why there's a saying that goes "Never ever expect a marriage to change things for the better, Be very grateful that it doesn't change for the worse"
I'm fully aware that nothing's perfect. Nothing is, nobody is.
And I'm fully aware, that it takes two to tango.
And in my case, it takes more than two to tango. A family affair like a wedding, takes into account so much more than just the both of us.
I had myself cushioned for this. Yet, not enough cushion to buffer myself some comfort & solace.
That - provided both of us are on a very aligned basis of foundation.
Two different individuals from worlds apart coming together would already be as tough.
But when you have two entirely different families & worlds coming together, daunting is quite an under-statement.
How do you manage multiple different levels of expectations and act as a seasoned mediator, when you yourself, is not convinced it can work out?
For a person like myself who needed to isolate & draw energy from within myself, to find comfort - I actually learned a whole new meaning to suffocation. Not something words can describe. No where near.
I guess it really is the best training ground to cultivate some inner strength.
A lot of the "Just when you thought, things could not get any worse, it just does" moments.
