Of Real Love

I've re-watched this video countless times, and it wets my eyes.

It's just touching, and blissful! You could literally see the pure happiness. Such a simple yet celebrated wedding.

Fish Leong and Tony Chao from Mayad Studios on Vimeo.

Overrated

Valentine's can be somewhat overrated sometimes.

I thought if you're happy & in love with that special someone, everyday's supposed to be Valentine's? Not particularly on 14th Feb. Isn't that right?

But yes, marketing as it is, you can't help it. The atmosphere of 'love is in the air' is themed all over the shopping malls (not so much this year, thanks to CNY! I love you CNY!)

So as I was walking around the mall yesterday, I came across this back to basic definitions that read :

Companion : Walks with me through experiences of life, sees the world through the same eyes.

Soul mates : I love you for not only what you are, but for what I am when I'm with you.

Lover : Weak in the knees when you walk into the room.

I was pondering last night and realised, yeah... sometimes we're rigid looking at the pre-qualifications, pre-requiremens, conditions to determine a right one who comes along, but fail to see the simplest rule of thumb it takes to just acknowledge the fact that you've found the right one.

I find revisiting these simple definitions rather meaningful, rather... liberating.

So What Happens Now?

Will I survive this?
I feel as if I've been cursed.
The past seems to always successfully haunt me. The way it is haunting me now.
If you ask me, I've thought hard enough. But what happens now?
The chances are bleak. So are the hopes. The future. The faith. The trust.
What is left remaining then, to strive for, to fight for?
It's just going to be a vain effort.
The misery is going to seep into the core of me so badly like poison, and it will never heal.
I have to cross my heart and say, I know this will eventually happen.

我很难受

我很难受。

我只能这样形容。

不想再说了。

A Boy And A Wolf

My horoscope for the day reads :
"Feeling more withdrawn, you're now either engrossed in the past or past mistakes contact you. There's no rush to do anything this week. Take time to follow your intuition, get in touch with your inner self and respect your dreams. Meditation could also help to calm old hurts."

It freaks the shit out of me sometimes, when horoscope readings can be so right & accurate.

I wonder how much more of this looks real to people.
I feel like I'm playing a role in a dramatic plot in the series.
You've heard of the story of a boy and a wolf.
Will I survive as the boy, if I'm yelling for the third time?
Will people still believe me?

If Only

If only there was a miracle,
If only there was no reality, no facts,
If only there was no difference in our current lives,
If only there was no distance,
If only our foundation was strong,
If only we were mutual,
If only we were compatible,
If only we complimented each other,
If only we'd not given up,
If only we'd made things right,
If only we'd loved each other enough,
If only we could turn back time,
If only things could be different,
If only all the if's don't have to exist... it would've been the most beautiful possible happy ending.

Of Stories In Songs

When I was going through bad times in the recent months...

如果你也听说 有没有想过我

像普通旧朋友 还是你依然会心疼我

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多

懂我的人就你一个

想到你想起我 胸口依然温热

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When I was painfully missing you...

Hey 我真的好想你

太多的情绪 没适当的表情

最想说的话我(应)该从何说起

你是否也像我一样在想你

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When I found some comfort & strength enough to let go...

与其让你在我怀中枯萎

宁愿你犯错后悔
让你飞向梦中的世界

留我独自伤悲

与其让你在我爱中憔悴

宁愿你受伤流泪
我非要你尝尽了苦悲

才懂真情可贵

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When I felt sane enough to rationalize fate...

我活了 我愛了 我都不管了
心愛到瘋了 恨到酸了就好了
可能的 可以的 真的可惜了
幸福好不容易 怎麼你卻不敢了呢？
我還以為我們能 不同於別人
我還以為不可能的 不會不可能

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When I thought of how we'd gone wrong...

又站在你家的门口我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候

还能多久

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Of the times when I felt how impossible it is to let go...

你给的依靠 我放不掉

你给的微笑 还在嘴角

我的骄傲 是你的好

我想回报 你却转身走掉

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Of the times when I wanted so much to see you, but did not...

有一種想見不敢見的傷痛 有一種愛還埋藏在我心中

我只能把你 放在我的心中

這一種想見不敢見的傷痛 讓我對你的思念越來越濃

我卻只能把你 把你放在我心中

對你的聲音 你的影 你的手

我發誓說我沒有忘記過

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Of the times I needed words of encouragement to stay rational...

解脱是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后
找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦

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